Like all good things, the winter holidays are a passing thing... and it seems like knowing about it doesn't make it any less depressing. I actually had over 2 weeks of free time to spend on relaxing, gaming and working on my presentation. But of course, it went as follows:

1. I wasn't really relaxed, because I wanted to get my presentation done and I knew that it was really going to be very difficult
2. I couldn't enjoy gaming at all, because I kept thinking about the presentation thing
3. by the time I finally got myself working on the presentation, I was too stressed out to really focus on it :-(

And the thing is: I knew that it was going to happen like this, I couldn't do anything about it and I know that it will happen again next year.

Resolutions for this year:

1. find a new psychologist and/or psychiatrist
2. get some work done
3. workout more or give up working out completely
4. finally decide whether I really want to still go for a relationship at all :-/

So, merry christmas, happy new year and have a nice depression.